there were a lot of preconceived assumption about me before i head to UK.
Most think that I will go wild. Cray wild. Drink every night (hmmm…) have sex, do weed and have more sex.
Far from it.
I have been enjoying company of people while sober. Conversations are well more meaningful and worth remembering. I’ve been wanting to travel. And so I did. With or without, I don’t really care. What matters was that - I am out and about every weekend.
I am never growing any younger.
I have been thinking lately if I should really go back after studying here.
In all honesty, I have nothing to look forward to back in Singapore. Except for my family and the food. Life here is so good. Love the alone time. Love the atmosphere. I don’t really need to be all rowdy to enjoy myself. Its a place for anyone. This had been nothing but a major concern for me of late. 3 years to think of this issue and I have to be quick on my uptake.
It doesn’t have to be UK. I could jolly well be working in Korea or better off in Hong Kong. Anything but back home. There’s flight. You see, I have no attachment with home. Proud of being SIngaporean, sure. But I never felt at home there. Outcast (or maybe I made myself into one) and living a dual life. It wasn’t easy for me. Not saying its easy in Manchester alone but at least I do not have to hide anymore.
And to say the least, I don’t wanna hide anymore.
For solid 22 years, I have done my utmost best.
Its about time that I live the life I sought after.
7:59 am |
March 10 2014
University of Birmingham. Absolutely adore the sport and rustic atmosphere. Too far from civilisation though. Those thinking of this uni better love being away from city centre. And 20 minutes walk to school. Every day. #birmingham #uob #sunny #uk #beautiful #slim #fit #qianfei (at University of Birmingham)
3:29 am |
March 9 2014
Bigger and thicker then singapore’s device #vscocam #huge #tiny #singapore #uk #size #mafan
3:55 am |
March 6 2014
And thank you for saturday night my OLD friend :) I apologise for depleting your biscuits cereals and milk stash hahahaha! Come to manchester soon!! #nottingham #uk #friends #old #aging #gracefully #decadeoldfriendship #singaporean #asian #weekend (at Nottingham)
10:03 pm |
March 2 2014
The lady who eats and the lady who cooks. Thank you for keeping me satiate and sorry for finishing your food stash! #cousins #nottingham #UoN #lake #sunny #freeloader #uk #greedy #tamak #singaporean #eateateat (at Nottingham University Lake)
5:30 pm |
March 2 2014
Prata keropok curry. #vscocam #asian #food #asianmode #ohsofull #kenyang #nottingham #dunkirk #uk #gemok #gg.com (at Claude street)
5:14 am |
March 1 2014
school had been exhausting lately.
i can’t wait for next week to be over and done with. i can fucking finally be near school, wake up 45 mins before class starts and still be on time instead of my normal 1.5 hours before commencing.
been dealing with shitass situations lately. its kind of a pain in the ass as i have to settle issues after issues, bring out my bitchy attitude and then go back to my subtle self. love and adore my cheery sttitude but hell, every single time i see blondie, i feel like slapping her right through the door and kick her out of UK. she is such a dick in the ass! i’ve been avoiding her on purpose of course. meeting her, the situation will either be - talk about her situations or borrowing money even if its in pennys.
like what the fuck! come on. you have money to buy luxury goods and not your daily necessities? have you any common sense honey?! do luxury goods makes you full and whatsoever? I AM PISSED
like dear god, please knock some senses into this imbecile.
i’m moving. nearer to her. but hell no am i ever gonna listen to her and be her dog. if she ever need my help, come to my place. it aint that far and she should be less of a bitch cos i am not her bloody maid to go and come as she please.
you want my help, move your white ass to my place and i will help.
gosh. i am harsh at times. but hell i need that to survive.
a friend had told me that someone said “I like syu”
its not funny given my ignorant nature. I tend to overlook on all those situations. and the worse thing is, if i found out who, i won’t be nonchalant about it and show, with complete obvious, that i have no intention to partake and respond to his feelings positively.
this is why many call me cold hearted. cos i don’t fall for anyone so easily nowadays. criteria? sigh… it fluctuates with times and right now, i don’t even have one because of the influx of young people that surrounds me and their thinking - simply not mature enough for my liking.
i need to grow up in the love department
12:42 pm |
February 28 2014
Thanks for the awesome bitchy weekend and coming all the way to grey city! You had been nothing but an amazeball! I’m so glad that you are just a mere 2 hours and £30 away from me. See you this friday! #vscocam #manchester #UK #cousins #family #bitchyweekend #blessed
2:09 am |
February 24 2014
I just feel so alone, even when I’m surrounded by other people.
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11:52 am |
February 22 2014
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Partying and feasting on papajohns. Eat and eat and eat. I need intervention #vscocam #pizza #carbs #imati #idie #mampos #uk #manchester #sumbat (at Mansion House)
1:49 am |
February 22 2014
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there she goes
she’s at it again.
and this time with my classmate.
god. you are so self centred, egotistical self-absorbed idiot aren’t you?
so all the guys I introduce - they like you??!! oh fuck hell. i am gonna stop introducing you to any of my guy friends cos you are gonna think they all like you or something when some honestly just want to purely be mere friends!
honey, you are pleasant looking and have a bubbly cheery personality. but your clingy attitude plus that mindset to boot - it ain’t getting anywhere. seriously what the fuck? you are EXACTLY the kind of girl that will put dicks before chicks! good friend? capital F.U.C.K.O.F.F!
i am gonna reach my limit soon. paws off my friends. if they like you, i am by all means fine with it. but stop thinking they all like you when OBVIOUSLY it ain’t even close to that.
you are pleasant looking outside but honey inside, its all messed up!
9:28 am |
February 18 2014